An Honest Struggle for the Perfect Life
Get rid of everything I don’t need (complete the 30 days of minimalism challenge). Get to goal weight and get healthy! Work out 5 times a week. Figure out an eating schedule that works. Learn to play guitar. Practice 30 mins a day. Play an open mic by the end of the year. Learn to... Continue Reading →
When I was a kid, my material possessions brought me a lot of comfort. In fact, the closer I kept them, the better. So, everything special to me got to live in my bed. Or, it lived on the floor right next to my bed, where I could easily reach it.
You want to do something, but you can’t bring yourself to face the frozen wind blowing tiny ninja stars into your eyes.
If you read my commiserate post about planning a wedding, or even the one about hosting parties, then you’ll know that ‘event planner’ was never a career option for me. Yet, in my typical control freak fashion, I deluded myself into believing I could just make everything for my wedding. And I mean EVERYTHING.
The day I’m writing this, I was up before the sun. WAY before. I jumped out of bed at 4:30 am, went for a run, and completed a strength training workout before walking the dog and starting my workday.
Lately, when I have a moment to think, the same thing pops into my mind: marshmallows. No, this isn’t another article about my obsession with food. Although fittingly, I have to put an almost herculean effort into not eating marshmallows if they’re in my eyeline. But if you want to dive into that rabbit hole,... Continue Reading →
I’m not sure about everyone else, but in my family, quitting your job without a “backup plan” (aka not having another job to go to) is something you just don’t do. Having a job is far more important than whatever fulfillment you get (or don’t get) from that job. I was trained early on that you could quit… as long as you had something stable to fall back on. I used to believe this too. I used to think that it didn’t matter if I was miserable at my job, I was lucky I had one at all.
If you’ve followed this blog for any amount of time, you know that I have a tendency to make big, impulsive decisions without always stopping to think of the possible consequences. The benefit of this is that when I let my passion lead without pausing to let my fear stop me, more often than not, good things happen. But it also means that when bad things happen, they can be disastrous.
When I feel overwhelmed, I imagine myself as a bricklayer. I try not to picture the finished project or every painstaking step it will take to get there. Imagining that kind of immense scale will give you vertigo.
If I have an issue with something, I usually use this website to explore strategies for making things better. But this week I don’t feel like exploring solutions, and I don’t feel like hiding my raw nerves behind a second person commiserate article. I don’t feel like doing that this week. And I don’t feel like hiding my raw nerves behind a second person commiserate post.
